This month Smash Magazine features Lisa Mac: In Their Own Words. Check out the article below to read about how I started out in music, what I’ve been doing, and where I’m going next.
Watch out for a feature in Smash Magazine’s next issue with my picture and some things that I wrote about myself 🙂 Free issues are available throughout Las Vegas and at this link:
I’ve been here many times before. Three days in with no cigarettes and ready to quit forever. And also have never tried to talk myself into buying a pack more.
But I’ll probably be good this time. ❤
So it’s getting to be winter. Which means I’ll be spending a lot of time cuddled up with a blanket and my guitar. Writing more songs. Recording a lot. Working out the details of recording. Hibernating and resting before another busy summer of performing. This summer I performed about 100 times, in three states. Next summer – another national tour, a little bigger this time, and another album in the works. I’m very excited, but also will be sleeping a lot in the near future and doing very little in general. And that’s important. ❤
I’ve been learning a lot about myself recently. Struggling a lot. Making a lot of mistakes. But also developing my career, meeting incredible people, and taking steps in my professional life. Honestly everything has been great, objectively. Emotionally though – some growing pains.
It’s easy to set aside anger in your head – and place it there for someone you think deserves it. It’s easy to let it sit there, and you always remember the situation as Their Fault. It’s easy to forget the little things we did to put ourselves in that situation, all the times along the way we could have spoke up and changed things, all the times we could have been kinder or more conscious to not just muck everything up. But I did. At several points in my life I’ve mucked everything up.
But you have to forgive yourself.
I wish I could say I came to it on my own, but I didn’t. I feel like now, unlike any other time in my life, I can actually see all the hidden parts of myself I didn’t want to admit were there. I see all the parts of my I need to work on and rebuild. And I’m not running from it anymore. I know what it feels like to have someone love every part of you. Even those parts. Someone who really wants to help – and has the ability to help – me become the person I want to be.
I’m grateful. He’s seen all the worst parts of me. He’s heard me scream in anger and hang up the phone. He’s seen me crying for hours suffering from a migraine, that I caused myself from being over-exhausted and not taking care of myself. He’s seen me childish and emotional. He’s seen me projecting, denying, and running away from my problems. And he still loves every part of me. And it sounds corny as hell but I didn’t realize that I even COULD love those parts of me, until I saw that he could. He believes in me more than anyone else in the world. And that’s saying a lot – I have an incredible support system of friends and family and I’m very blessed.
So now we start planning a wedding. ❤ And I couldn’t be more excited.
I’ve been doing a ton of covers recently, which is my favorite thing to do. I love pulling up something new and just site reading through it. I love going live on facebook and asking for requests, which is what this video is, below. I need more jam time and more studio time in my life right now to relax from a spastically busy summer of performing – so that’s what I’ve been doing 🙂 That’s my therapy. So here’s one! This song was requested by my sister. And I can’t tell you how many times they have asked me to play this, but this is the first time I’ve given it a shot. Enjoy!
A lot of people have been sharing their feelings about what happened this week on social media. All I have to offer is my thoughts in song form. I went live on Facebook this morning to share this song (and a few requests from fans). Thank you Muse for putting it all into words for me.
I’ll be performing at a benefit 10/14/17 at Backstage Bar and Billiards in Las Vegas to benefit the victims and their families. Thank you to Smash Magazine for the opportunity to give back to the community. ❤